Love me before I grow old
67Love me before I grow old – poem by Cathy Nerujen
This poem was written during a time when I was deeply infatuated with a person who was actually in love with someone else, and in fact engaged to that other person. I thought I was really in love with this other person – but love is not love until the other person feels the same love back. I knew the engagement was tainted as their love was one of convenience, rather than real love. And so I wrote the object of my deep affection this personal love letter poem, and it went unanswered for a long time. I put my heart and emotions out in the open and explained myself. What happened in the end? Well, you’ll find out at the end of this poem...
I think I’m in love
With the touch of your soul,
And the taste of your smiles –
And the lips that help make them.
I feel that I know you so much,
Now it’s true.
The sparks and the flames
As they guide us together –
Which tells me it’s time now
To say how I feel.
I ask you now sister – if love is the reason
My heart sings with joy
Every time you are near?
I’ve watched from a distance
While closer we crept
To the point where our hands and
our fingers now touch –
and I feel the excitement and
Warmth of your eyes
While my heart it beats faster –
Whenever your here.
So I half want an answer –
and half run away –
as I know you are promised
to somebody else.
Is loving you wrong, when I know
you feel likewise –
but dare not to mention the
cracks in the ice?
No love is an island,
no love has a shield –
which cannot be swam to
or broken- if need
(like love) fits the purpose –
like rain has a wetness –
and God is my witness
to how I now feel...
My life it is empty –
and love it eludes me –
I know I’m in love
with the touch of your soul –
your heart is so open,
so warm and inviting –
so could you please
love me before I grow old?
In the end, the person didn’t take up my offer, and we never saw each other for more than a year. The two got married, while I continued my life until one fateful night at an art gallery, I met my current partner, Cassy. I have never been happier since then. I very recently found out that the marriage of the two people mentioned above broke up. How strange and cruel life can be. And stranger still, the person I was so infatuated with, got in touch with me, but alas, things have changed and I am now in this wonderful relationship with my partner and I have made my choice. I have never regretted it. That’s love for you. I finally decided to excise the demons and publish the love poem, in the knowledge that I am over that non-romance now, and I have been set free to find true happiness with my Cassy.
Dedicated to everyone who has experienced unrequited love everywhere.
Cathy Nerujen.
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I love the poem Cathy and I love how life turns out for the good when you are least expecting it. For one so young you have a great insight to life, may you both be happy and in love for ever. jeeeez isnt the Captain more romantic than that boring old tattoo guy was, I may write a poem myself some day soon, just so you can see moi poetry, enjoy yer weekend xoxo
Another beautiful words of un-reciprocated love. I'm happy for what you have now and what you have become. From this poem, it isn't enough that you love each other as they say. There would always be things that would screw you or things that would scare you. Too bad that girl held back whatever feelings she had for you. She's afraid. You're not meant to be eh. There's a reason for such things. That's a dark journey, an old page, a basket of buns you could use to find the right way ahead. Whadda hell, I mentioned 'buns' again LMAO Anywayz, a journey, bad or good, always teach us some lessons. I'm happy for what you are now my friend. And whose lap you fell - Miss Curly hair! :)
Always love your poetry. Always real and always you :) Keep writing and I'll keep on reading.
TC XO
Totally awesome.... Some of Gods´greatest gifts are unanswered prayers....... l hope you continue to be happy with Cassie for the rest of a long life. Thank you for sharing.
Astra Nomik. Hi. Wow what an absolutely beautiful Poem, written with such emotion.
Your true love was out there waiting for you, just around the corner and eventually you found one another.
This other person was not for you.
You will love one another when you grow old. I wish you both all the happiness in the world.
Thanks for sharing your beautiful Poem with us. :) :)
Wow awesome, thank you for allowing me to read your words.
Lovely poem and I did feel the predicament you went through which in turn inspired the poem!! Great work!! Cheers!!
Love is still love even it can't reach that person we love. Painful, yes, but we learned something from it. I am glad you found someone else to love and living the happy life now. Beautiful poem, dear. really touching. Love it.
..I really wish I could write like this - you write like a female Leonard Cohen - probably the highest acclaim that I could give to ANY writer - I really love this piece of ART - I will try to answer you with this one in my own humble way of writing - humble, because I am on my knees right now - bowing to you - and now a bit of a revelation to you from me - ready?
One of my favorite songwriters/singers is Morrisey from the Smiths - are you familiar with his work? Well if not , just go to You Tube and type in his name (solo career) or the Smiths - his band from the 80's - the point I'm making is Morrisey is gay - and when writes/sings about love or lost love - it's so beautiful and heartfelt and passionate it really dosen't matter that it's about two men - or in another realm - two women - because good love - great love can be found anywhere between any two people .......
Things usually turn out they way they should. Beautiful poem - thanks for sharing.
Just popped by to confirm my love of both you and yer poetry. I was stunned by Cassys comment but trust me that section on Poets was aimed at a few peeps before yer time and they know who they are. I love you and Cassy loads and her comment hurt me because I thought she knew me better than that.
I dont normally put peeps on my profile but I put you 2 girls on both TattoGuys and BadCos because you are genuine and special girls who I feel I know and who support me, I so didnt mean you any harm in that poets bit as your poetry is just awesome as are you, I guess Cassy doesnt see that, enjoy yer weekend xoxo
Beautifully rendered and I love that you explained how you got to write it, Astra Nomik, and such a beautiful ending to your story. Thank you.
you've captured the moment in its true form; i understand how you feel. completely . only time can tell. More power to you; blessed be. Nikki!
This was amazing I am tearing up. I loved it so deep. I have situation like this. I love someone but the fact of our culture stands in the way so I know he will never be mines and will always have his allowed race of a women for show. Regardless to the amazing relationship we have and the 11 years of history. He told me one day it is a possibility for us to be. It hurts to know your in love but there's a cloud-stand by. I wish him luck although I know it will always be me he loves and I as him. We must all move on. To this day I feel this way, will he love me before I get old. This is how amazing your hub was I'm caught in the moment.. Fantastic . Reminds me of a broadway play tge story line then a poem number then back to the show. Voted up for me.
im glad you two are acquainted; awww ^_^ my two friends talking and sharing. I still need to learn how to link your profile on mine missy foot lol
LOL...HEY NIKIILEE(GIGGLES) WELL YES MY DEAR. I AM SUPER TURNED UP!!!!!!! I LOVE THIS IT KEEPS SMILE ON MY FACE. THE ONES THAT HURTS AFTER A WHILE FROM NOT REALIZING HOW LONG YOUR FACE HELD THE POSITION.LOL..WOW AND YES ASTRA IT REMINDS ME OF THIS OFF BROADWAY MUSICAL (THE TEENAGE CHRONICLES) I WAS THE DANCE CHOREOGRAPHER FOR THIS SHOW LAST YEAR. I FOUND IT INTERESTING HOW THEY HAD ADDED POETRY PERIODICALLY THROUGH THE PLAY ALONG WITH SINING AND DANCING. THE POETRY WAS NOT ACTED OUT BUT SO HEART FELT IN VOICE AND APPEARANCE IT FELT AS IF. THAT WAS A FIRST FOR ME AND YOUR HUB THE WAY WRITTEN WAS A REMINDER..THANKS, TO SUBMIT AND RATE POETRY OF THE WEEK GO TO CHERIHEARTFELT.VPWEB.COM (LOWER CASE LETTERS SORRY..)I LOVE ALL WRITERS WE ARE FAMILY AND READERS TOO..THANK YOU FOR ALL THE SUPPORT GUYS KEEP MOVING FORWARD..
Wow!!! I loved reading this!! I literally read this over and over it was so beautiful! I been there before in different ways love is always so complicated yet simple to feel at the same time. Its such a natural thing. I love your poems keep them coming =) ,
Chrissie
Enjoy yer weekend moi lil Poet xoxo
This is so emotional and beautifully written. I am so pleased I found you.
What a lovely poem! Love your honesty and emotion. Very happy for you and your Cassy. May you both enjoy the best that life has to offer. A wonderful way to grow old.
I have written my first poem in a year, I want yer honest opinion xoxo
Thanks for sharing your personal thoughts. Love has its twists and turns and I believe that everything happens for a good reason. Hindsight is a wonderful thing and although at times before we discover the truth of why things turned out the way they did, the experience of love can be deeply painful and heart-breaking but being patient in love rewards those willing to be patient and the love we finally taste is truly worth the wait and certainly so sweet to the taste!
I think you're gonna enjoy my Hungry Eyes Prt 2. It's harder being the narrator of a man. Ill link it to you as soon as I post it. let me tell cheeky too, i know she enjoys these kinda stories!
Hi! Astra
Your comment made me come to see your recent poem. I like the title very much -love me before I grow old. It says every thing. Infatuation- impatience under infatuation, ready to do any thing etc. You express indeed exceptionally well with your full heart's rhythm is visible in the poem.
Infatuation is indeed great, one feels sweetness all around oneself in those days. Specially in these signs of darkness all over world these days it gives strength. But love is a lot more. I am happy about your life how it has turned out to be (actually I thought you are a lot younger may be even a teenager! your style has that type expressiveness-innocence). Wish you all the good luck to have a very sweet life all the time.
Time... its an element of being ready for the responsibility of a real relationship. Not that what you felt at the time was not real, it certainly was to you. But now its real to you and your partner, and there isn't anything in fantasy that could be better than that. Thanks for having the courage to share... even if you are over it, reminiscing is often harder to deal with than the original feelings.
omaigoshhhhhhhhhh after reading ur work i feel like i have a really really long way 2 go b4 i cn bcum evn 5 % as gud as u r...awesum...3 cheers 2 ya..:)....
You have a way to sink my thoughts..I'm patiently waiting for the next poem :)
very nice....waiting for d next....
Beautiful Astra. It's too late for me though! Good luck, God bless!
Wow .... totally awesome poetry .
This is so beautiful. A wish for love before it's too late, but you're never too old to love. Thank you for sharing.
Astra, you write some of the best poetry I've read on the hub. This is absolutely beautiful.
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wow...this truly touched me, my heart, my soul, everything!!! I can relate to these feelings and Im so happy that things worked out for you in the end the way they were meant to. This was a masterpiece of the heart. I felt the emotion deep inside. Thank you so much for sharing this.
they say things happen for a reason. no use wondering what if and why, im glad your happy with someone now, someone worth waiting for, but you didnt have to. its rude to make someone wait for too long. and you were obviously not first choice with the married/divorced person. never take second string. i played that role one too many times.
i waited like a year for a guy before and it still didnt work, i guess he tried, but it wasnt enough. he couldnt give me what i wanted. ive played second string quite a few times, i wasnt top priority like i should have been and too many times they chose some other girl over me. and i chose all the wrong guys. Hopefully i have it right this time.
I want to publish my poems too. i have tons lol. I just dont know how to go about doing that. Any suggestions? who are you going through to get yours published? I am also working on a novel.
How much I love this poem!!! YES YES YES!! This is a classic.. I feel the level of emotions..so connected, I am happy about that :) Also this is a great song;)
Keep moving forward.. Bless
Great stuff. I particularly love the title. Voted up.
Thank you for sharing with us something so emotional.
There are no words to describe how touched I am with this.
Excellent Hub and I am now your follower... I relate so much to this
Very nice done Astra Nomik. We all must have had this unrequited love. God bless you.
Very Beautiful hub
Beautifully sad and well written , thanks for the read! :)Voted up , awesome and beautiful !
Great poem! Great intro and it was neat to catch the conclusion. Thanks for stopping by my hub. Wow!! What and awesome profile you have. Go baby, Go!! I will be back for more. Thanks.
Sincerely,
W.
I LOVED EVERY WORD OF THIS POEM! I am a closet poet for my materials are mostly abstract/prose and I do not share it with people for fear of rejection, but you, my friend, you need to pursue a writing career FULL-TIME. And I am HONORED to follow you.
Beautiful, Astra. How soulfully you expressed your unrequited love. But what you say seems to be true--it's not really love until it's returned; then it's so much more real. And I think sometimes it takes going through such heartache to know what the real thing is, such as you found with Cassy. I'm looking forward to reading more of your work!
I am in LOVE with this... you can feel the termoil, and waiting in your words. I know I can speak from experience what this feels like. It sounds like you were better off, and I am happy that you found happiness and the love you deserve. You are a beautiful soul, inside and out! Truly enjoying your writings
ps I'm sharing this on FB.. I know SEVERAL people that will enjoy this and that can relate to this feeling right now.
I am a HUGE fan!! Keep writing girl! Beautiful
OMG Loved this poem!!!
Voted up and beautiful. x
Your words are beautiful.
Such a beautiful way fate somehow steps in making what will be just that. Found this on Facebook and I am very touched by your words and love you have within yourself. In light and love always, Johnny
Thank u so much Cathy for posting this poem. It was beautiful and I can relate. It is true, you can't have real love unless both of you feel the same. And sometimes our love is turned toward someone else that we don't see the others right in front of us and when we do its usually too late. Things happen for a reason and I am glad you met cassie and made the choice to let go of the past. I need to do the same.
and I just realized i commented on this poem already long time ago. haha.









































acaetnna Level 6 Commenter 19 months ago
This is totally beautiful Cathy, I could certainly feel your words bubbling with emotion. Things go wrong in this life but I think they always happen for a reason. You were heartbroken at the time but you have now found true happiness. This is wonderful and I have danced on your tabs.